From Charles Givens‘ Financial Self-Defence:
When your actions are out of alignment with your values, you can experience fear, guilt, frustration and emotional imbalance. Fortunately, you can get rid of those negative, unwanted feelings. You can either:
1. Change your actions to align with your values, or
2 Change your values to align with your actions.
In other words, you need to abolish Bad Faith, as covered in Issue Four. It is a simple procedure when put down in black and white, as above.
You either need to make the internal adjustments necessary to become the waiter/waitress you currently resemble; or you can stop pouring coffee and embark upon the actions required to save the turtles like you always wanted.
Only you can free yourself. What are you afraid of?